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Getting Close to
the Divine...
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The Day I Died
(Kelp)
The year was 1958 and I was a young sailor stationed at the US
NAVAL RADIO STATION, in Imperial Beach, California. I had been a student
learning radio communications for several months and was close to graduating.
I would have been eighteen years old.
It was one of those windy March days when the sky is a deep
blue, but filled with those big, soft, puffy clouds that would block the sun
from time to time. When it did, it was cold, but then immediately warmed
up when the clouds moved. When you
were in the sun and out of the wind, it was a nice, warm day.
The water on the other hand, was not so nice; it was rough and the life
guards had put up signs warning everyone to stay out due to rip-tides.
Anyway, with nothing better to do, three of us headed for the
beach, figuring we’d just lay around, gaze at the girls and maybe get a little
tan.
Believe me when I say I had no intention of going swimming—it was
just not warm enough and the water was too rough. That was further
compounded by the kelp rising and falling with the rough waves.
But what could it hurt if I only went in up to my knees?
So I went in the water up to my ankles and watched the thick mass of kelp
rising and falling with the waves and remember thinking, “boy, I'd hate to get
caught in that stuff.”
I had only been in the water a minute or less when a wave came in
a little further than the others—not all that high, not even hip-deep.
As you know, waves come in, dissipate and go back out.
No biggie, standard operating procedure.
But even though it wasn’t deep, the out-flowing water grabbed my ankles
just as tightly as if two hands had, and jerked them out from under me, slamming
me down flat on my back.
On my back, I immediately saw the next wave come crashing
over me. I instinctively took a deep
breath and began fighting to break free, thrashing, twisting, turning, and all
to no avail. Still flat on my back I
was being raced out to sea feet first.
I vividly remember my butt bumping along on what felt like a washboard
surface as this unstoppable force dragged me out to sea.
After twenty or thirty seconds I opened my eyes and could dimly
see that I was at least eight feet under—and still being rapidly pulled out.
The water was a dark, blurry green, but I could see white foam on the
surface, rising, falling and being tossed about by the waves.
When the rip-tide had grabbed me, the water had only been about knee
deep.
Overpowered and helpless, I did everything I could to break loose
of the ocean’s grip. Then I felt
pure horror as that huge mass of kelp was suddenly all over me, its tentacles
wrapping around and gripping my body. The more I fought, the tighter they
grabbed me. Now I really scared.
My lungs felt like they were going to burst, the weeds had me locked in a
vice-like death grip and I was relentlessly being pulled deeper and deeper out
to sea.
As the kelp rose and fell with the waves I, too, rose and fell.
I was helpless. Then it happened…
If you've ever tried to hold your breath as long as you can, then
you know there comes a point where you no longer can.
Well, that’s what finally happened…I could hold my breath no more and I
watched as bubbles from my mouth rose to the surface.
Then I remember thinking, “Ah, the sun must have come out from
behind a cloud,” because I saw a brilliant white light on the surface of the
water and the water, itself, became a luminescent green.
Suddenly a commanding voice issued a single one word order, “Relax!”
Amazingly, my body instantly relaxed completely.
Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, I wasn’t concerned, I just did what I
was ordered to.
It was about that time when I realized I was looking at my body,
completely unconcerned that it was lying inert, rising and falling with the
ocean’s movement. I don't recall seeing the kelp that was wrapped around
me. I guess it was inconsequential.
Suddenly I was again in my body, and my head, which had been lying
parallel with the ground, started rising.
The kelp miraculously began sliding off me as I started rising toward the
surface, slipping through the kelp as they amazingly slid off me.
I popped to the surface totally alert and with no water in my
lungs. Like I said at the beginning,
the sea was rough and, even though I was no longer on the bottom of the ocean,
my ordeal was anything but over.
The waves seemed to be coming from all directions, rising and
falling way over my head; they weren’t rolling in like breakers normally do.
When I popped to the surface I was in a trough and couldn’t see anything
but water on all four sides. Then I
crested on a wave, but was facing out to sea and all I saw was ocean…scary.
Then down in the trough again. The next time I crested, I spun around,
trying to locate land to know which way to swim.
I was shocked to see how far out I was when I finally located
land. So far out that people looked
like small ants. I was probably
about a thousand yards beyond the Imperial Beach pier; maybe more, and it was a
long pier. The water was so rough I
could only catch glimpses of the land, but that’s the direction I started
swimming.
Progress was impossible against the outgoing tide, but it soon
became obvious that the current was taking me south towards Mexico.
How I knew to start swimming south and angle in, I have no clue, but
that’s what I did.
My nightmare seemed like it would never end.
And the truth is, I cannot tell you how I got to shore because I do not
remember. I swam south while angling
in for at least an hour, maybe more, until I was about 50 yards off shore; then
I headed directly in. Here the water
was behaved more like normal waves, breaking and coming in.
So for the last fifty yards or so, I rode the waves in by body surfing.
I remember that last wave when I finally felt sand under my hands
and feet. I was at least a mile down
the beach from where I had started.
But even now with my fingers touching land, the fight wasn’t over.
As I tried to stand up the outgoing tide was dragging me back out again.
In my exhausted condition I was unable to walk because the force of the
water grabbed my feet with such force and the sand would dissolve under them.
I grabbed at the sand with my hands, trying to drag myself out, but the
sand would just dissolve in my grip.
Horrified, I realized I was losing the battle and going back out
to sea again. Then another wave
washed over me and pushed me in just a little further.
I was finally able to stand up the second time I washed in.
But walking out seemed impossible as the outgoing water again whipped
against my legs with such force they were almost pulled out from under me.
I remember thinking, “The ocean isn’t going to let me go!”
It took more than an hour to walk back to my buddies.
When I got back, one of them looked up and said, “Where in the hell have
you been?”
I didn’t know what to say, so I half lied, “I went for a walk.”
As I said at the beginning, the year was 1958.
I was a young sailor and had never heard anyone talk of a near-death
experience. I did not know about
getting caught up in the “White Light.”
I didn’t realize that I had been sent back—that I should have died.
All I knew was that something had happened that was more than my mind
could grasp.
So I put it out of my mind.
One day maybe thirty years later I began writing.
I was just writing autobiographical stuff.
Suddenly this story began unfolding on paper and I began crying as I
relived experience all over again.
By then I had experienced more of life and I understood what had happened.
As I wrote, I cried. I
bawled. I understood that I’d been given a second chance.
I also realized that I had four children who shouldn’t be here, and that
they have children who shouldn’t be here, either, except I had been spared for
some reason...who knows why?